Everyone lives on this earth to serve a purpose. That is what I believe. God has a plan for everyone. But i guess my question is...Have you ever felt like you knew what was going to happen? I can't really explain it except for my experience. And i will probably sound crazy but bare with me, please.
I feel like, like I don't have a long journey ahead of me. I mean this in the best way but i always have had this feeling that God's plan for my life will be exciting and know I am going to touch people in so many different ways but I just have this strong feeling that it is all going to happen soon and then I am going to be done. I will have no more purpose on this earth and well you know.....
I am okay with leaving early in my life but I just want to know, you know? I can never say I believe this deep strong feeling because I am so scared that i am battling with myself, with my mind. I am scared that I might have manipulated my mind to believe something that maybe deep down I wish is true. I am not trying to say that I am a depressed suicidal maniac. And I don't expect anyone to understand this. I just want it off my chest.
I feel like God is preparing me though. Like, he is getting me ready for the blow or whatever it might be. I can honestly say that I am ready. I just don't know if I should be. Possibly, what if it was just all in my mind?
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thats pretty intense, im not gonna lie! i think its awesome though that your so ready and willing to serve god, you rock hard core friend! and like i said i got your back no matter what happens, and im praying for you!
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