Day of Tears

Have you ever had one of those days where you just need to cry? You are just so frustrated with everything that is happening in your life, you just don't know what to do but just cry. I hate crying...I don't like to show any emotions except happiness and joy. Not anger or sadness. I don't want to bring other people down. I keep everything to myself for other peoples sake. But there are always those days where you just feel like if you don't let something out, you will burst into a trillion little pieces. And it never helps when you are listening to your playlist and a song comes up like "I'll Stand By You" by Gina Glocksen comes on and just makes everything worse. These are always terrible days in my mind and my entire body just wants to collapse onto the ground and never get up. If I could, I wish I could just drop everything in my life and just leave. At least until I am ready to come back to this mess of what I call a life. But I don't show anyone this. Pretty sure everyone that I have talked to today thinks I am perfectly fine. I will admit, i'm a pretty good actress. But when I am by myself, it just seems like hell. I think that is why I always keep myself busy with things so I never have a moment to think about everything. And I am always around people. So you could think this habbit of mine is unhealthy, and it isn't but it's my life and I have tryed to be more open about showing my emotions and it just never worked out. But today I don't think things could get any worse.And somehow by the end of the day I seem to have made it through without shedding a tear.